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I the gay, by tragical accident have some years ago got under wheels of a moving train. Result - amputation of the bottom extremity. When I have lived with it some years, began to understand more and more that became necessary to nobody, the guys have ceased to pay attention to me, many steels to be afraid of me. And I have understood, what for I am necessary to them, when around full beautiful and healthy.
I write сдесь about it because has bothered so to live, I after all and haven't had time to see present - happy life, and now I think only of when all it to end.
I have tested all variants, but all is useless, and as painfully happens, when the one whom on the present you love escapes from you, switches off phone and doesn't want to communicate.
Whether it is necessary to me to live? Whether it is necessary to struggle, when struggle doesn't bring any results (I struggle 11 years)?
I absolutely don't have means to сущесвованию, the social help in my country isn't present. My life began to turn to a hell? Whether it is necessary so to live?